In your show at De Queeste Art Kunstkamers last year you also exhibited charcoal head drawings. In what way are these different?

These drawings are simpler, more economic. Fewer lines. Actually they were harder to make because it’s difficult to distill. It’s easier to keep adding. The writer Lilian Pizzichini said the head drawings reminded her of a rogue’s gallery, people who have been marked by life. She didn’t see them as self portraits.

Rather, these faces took on their own identity. “Some of them resemble clowns – the mournfulness of Stan Laurel – the recriminations of Oliver Hardy. Another face has a raffish, complicit leer – like the sixth or seventh man in Carol Reed’s The Third Man – except Blane has given us the one who got away with it. Although no one quite gets away with it in her version of a rogue’s gallery.”

It was hard to simplify the charcoal smudges, one takes a risk, it’s a bigger statement. But otherwise the imagery is still of break down, things falling apart, a collapse of personality – the face being the metaphor. But Deconstruct is not just an exhibition of “heads” there are abstract paintings and drawings. Paintings of disintegration and black work. Heads are a small part of my work.

Which do you prefer making abstract or figurative work?

I prefer making and looking at abstract drawings and paintings. They have more mystery. I don’t like doing heads much. I painted quite violent images of heads vomiting and heads eating heads at Byam Shaw and later at the Slade. Now the imagery is still emotive but more subtle.

Do you prefer to draw or paint?

I hate drawing. Always have. Had years of life drawing. However the discipline of learning to observe helps, whatever you do. Drawing is harder because there’s only you. My heart sinks when I draw. It’s so easy to fail. No texture, no colour. It’s very lonely. Paint is exciting because it can be hard to control, and I always push it to it’s physical limit When things get chaotic the work expands and I welcome surprise.

You must think/act quickly.

I construct from destruction, and the painting/drawing gets stronger. My subject matter is disintegration. Broken heads. Broken paint. That’s how the exhibition title Deconstruction came about.

Who are your favourite artists?

Too many to mention. I always like Bonnard and Vuillard, the German Expressionists, Roger Hilton and Michael Andrews. But it changes all the time.  At the moment I’m looking at Massacio and de Kooning.

Do you like your work?

Not really. It’s too familiar. I sometimes feel quite sick when I see it out of the studio.  I notice all that’s wrong. I wonder ‘Is that the best you could do? And at the time it was.

Whose work do you hang on your walls at home?

Nothing at the moment. I’ve got a new flat and I like the white walls. There’s nothing up.  Everything is in storage. I like it.  I’ve decided I don’t want to look at other people’s problems. Especially mine.

How do you feel about exhibiting in close proximity to Francis Bacon and Louise Bourgeois? Can you see any connection between your works?

Firstly I feel very lucky, privileged and honoured that Dirk and Theun Vonckx, the gallerists at De Queeste Kunstkamers, selected me for this group of exhibitions  Its important to me. I was a bit worried because however confident I feel about the work in the studio, one never knows how it will stand up in a different space.

Also Louise Bourgeois and Francis Bacon are two of the most famous artists in recent years, so it’s a tough call. I see the connection between Louise Bourgeois and myself. We’re both women making work arising from trauma.

I like the fact that her drawings/prints work are very particular, almost laboured, whereas mine can appear haphazard. Otherwise her subject matter is completely different. It feels alien. Oddly I relate more to Francis Bacon’s images, they are “nearer”, more familiar. Visually he and I are opposites.

Can that be a connection?

He trained and also worked as an interior designer so he understands aesthetics and making things look good. The imagery is savage and shocking yet  it’s elegant and beautifully crafted. The paintings are under glass, making them almost precious whereas my work looks scruffy, practically one step away from the bin.

Marks from the making of the drawings/paintings are allowed to accrue, whereas Francis Bacon’s work is sleek and seamless. He was clever to contrast the violence with beautiful presentation, he’s a fabulous artist.

Do you know what you’ll do next in the studio?

No I have no idea. If I did, I probably wouldn’t do it.

Do you like speaking about your work?

No, not at all. I think it spoils it for others, and also myself. It becomes too known, too limiting. Almost finite. I never know what to say. Someone said the worse a piece of art is, the easier it is to talk about. It should stand alone.